Will I fit back in??

Before one and a half years I flew from India to US of A with lots of dreams in my eyes. Back in India, everyone I knew told me that after a few years in US, I won't feel like coming back. 

Reasons given were pollution, population, law and order, cleanliness, education system, technology, resources, recognition of talent, opportunities, etc, just to name a few from that long long list. Discussions and opinions bounced around the table, which flooded my mind.

It's been a while I am here. It was tough initially, in fact very tough, being away from the people I love, care and share with, but eventually I had to learn 'going the distance' thing.

For me it was the first time I was out of my comfort zone, away from 'my home'. Here I was to take decisions and then live the consequences, whether good or bad. In simple words I was responsible for all my acts and deeds.

So many new things, it was beyond what people generally mention about a new country or place. The small things whose experiences vary from person to person. Searching for an apartment, living with roommates, on campus jobs, internships, cooking, relationships, etc. I think the list never ends. After all these ups and downs, good and bad times, smiles and tears, I think now I like it in here.

Lately that old thought struck me back. 'Is it true that I won't feel like settling back in India after a while?' The conversations I was a part of before flying down here, in which just my subconscious brain participated, as my conscious brain was busy pondering over other important things like shopping, partying, university, new friends, etc. But those conversations did get recorded somewhere inside my head.

It's Me, who wont be able to tolerate the pollution. It's Me, who won't appreciate the population explosion. It's Me, who wont like the untimely strikes and confusions in law and order. It's Me, who wont be able to tolerate the struggle one has to undergo to get small things done. It's Me, whose immunity system is not that efficient to fight the germs there. It's Me, who will have contrasting perspective over many issues. It's Me, who will not give in to the orthodox views. Oh I can go on listing out the things where I may have troubles fitting or adjusting in. But how can I deny the fact that 'phir bhi dil hai hindustani'.

Its 'Me' who may or may not fit in. If on my 'judgment day' I get a feeling that my ideas and views, my attitude to compare and contrast everything here and there, my confused state of mind, is acceptable, I will be glad to be back.

So I await the time when I am both the judge and the convict, waiting for the answer to the question - 'will I fit back in?'

What goes around...goes around...goes around....comes all the way back around!!